13.10.04 ;

I need to thrash some thoughts.
One word to express how i feel;
ARGH !

"Honesty is the best policy."

Cowdung.
The irony of it.

It doesn't seem so at all.
Truth hurts and 'statistics' have
shown the immense dislike for it.

Duct tape my trap, shut me up.
I don't speak no words your
ears aches to hear. I speak with
no attempts to seduce you into
taking in any thoughts i have.
I'm not one who plays the role of
"the dragon that blandishes with
the head and smites with the tail"
though it would've saved my ass
from being burnt so many times.

Anyway, straight to the point,
no saga.

As much as you feel "very vexed,
pissed off and irritated.. " , I feel
equally cheesed off too. It's barely
1 month (?) we restored this friendship
and i'm happy, yes. BUT not when
you start 'warming up' to my friends
and hung out with us everyday.

PS. I'm hoping you don't take
offence in that, i can't think of a
nicer way to get my point across.

I like you. I DO. Enough to call you
a buddy and anything BUT i'm not
one to make familiar with sudden
closeness..like everyday ?

I feel time with my friends are
somehow 'rudely' taken away.
It's either one huge gang or nothing.

Offensive ? No intention.
Admit it; there has never been
a time (since we reconciled) that
we spend time without you gracing
us with your presence. Has there ?

Curse me now..but i refuse to
keep it from you. And i called you,
my dear friend and talked ever so
nicely. I was choking on my pride.
And ? You replied ever so nicely
as well. But what's with it girlfriend;
the talk that delivered NO unhappiness
but so much displeasure in the sms ?
I'm waiting for an explanation. My
comprehension skills sucks 101%.

You're calling for war sweetie..don't.
You know i love you too much.
I expressed in hope you'd understand..
You're evoking too much emotions.

Aint no way no how,
this bullshit can be true.

I hereby swallow my pride,
and i'd compromise with whatever
comes along since i'm the only one
affected. But PLEASE, don't wreck
our friend's birthday. Let's make
it a smashin' one for her..alright ?

I won't take back what i said,
but i can let it be, if you want to.
Or we can both start war and hate
eachother. Whichever you may
choose. I gave a suggestion, the
descision is yours. So long. <3