14.7.05 ;

Can you paint a broken heart,
framed with lines of disregard?

Before you read further, Feed an Animal!
There, that wasn't too difficult was it. (:

Ransom notes keep falling out of your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you.
You don't care a bit, you don't care a bit.

Prisoners in a gilded cage; each & everyone of us.

I'm working on my synopsis for art & it dawned on me
that there are a lot of misconceptions about me. Just what
kind of image am I putting out? I've been judged/conceived
a slacker, a rebel (being most common), a stick in the mud,
a fucking bitch, a smart bitch, sarcastic, strong-willed &
hotheaded. I've heard some people label me all of these.
But what really am I? Am I any of these things? Am I all
of em? I think I'm some of both. & how is this related to
my art? My art's themed on Judgement.

It's funny & frustrating at the same time to see what
people think about me. Or see how they think they know
me but how little they actually know about me.

"So I've got a smile on, but it's hiding the quiet
superstitions in my head."

Should this be taken as insecurity that I'm asking these
questions to myself? Maybe. But maybe insecurity is only
real if you ask the questions aloud. Everyone has doubts
about anything & everything. It's just how well you hide em
that makes you look confident & the more confident you are,
the more double takes you'll get.

-

Judge, Jury, & Executioner.

"..gold-plated taps in his office's bathroom, flew first-class
everywhere on charity expense & takes home a
SGD$600 000 a year."

Sounds like your typical top business executive?
Unfortunately Mr Durai is no ordinary executive;
he runs a charity.

" SGD$600 000 is PEANUTS", said Mrs Goh Chok Tong.

Jumping jellybeans. That's one HUGE nut & the one
who said it is a mega nutcase too. Only good at asking
us civillians DONATE.

Mr Durai's BIGGEST mistake, (that will probably mark
the end of his career), was suing Singapore's only newspaper
company. Any rational person would realize that such media
monopoly can obliterate any reputation. I believe that it was
the entitlement mentality that made him believe he could
defend his position to the public. Bad move, checkmate.

I find it hard to sympathize with him because of 2 main reasons.

Extravagance
It is true he has done lots to get donations. 30 years of
spare funds means an excellent marketing strategy.
But he is running a charitable organisation and the funds
he has in his coffers are from public donations. So who the
hell does he think he is, spending on lavish luxury items on
himself & NKF. GOLD-PLATED taps. Maybe he has a
GOLD-PLATED handshake too.

Hiding the Truth
All this while he has been trying to quell the truth.
His latest futile attempt to sue SPH. His intention not to
correct the figures on the number of NKF beneficiaries.
His attempt to pretend that he did not take First Class.


You hide behind your lies, your little web of deception.
You're defeated. Again, nothing free from taint & ill.

-

Those with my number, please drop me a text.
My dear phone died on me 2 days ago & I had to
reset the hardware & bla. So yes, if you wanna
remain contactable by me, drop a text. I'm definitely
worth your 5 cents. (: