4.7.05 ;

CUT. [v] Stop filming
%Y

I just got off the phone & I'm taking time
to plot my thoughts down in Black & White.

Filming can resume but I QUIT. The good guy's
role is hard to play & i don't want to play no 'villian'.

When she rips your heart apart at the seams,
feelings of regret will not be mine, for I did what
I feel should to be done. I believe your other friends
(FRIENDS, only you don't think they are) did too.

One man show, baby, you'll be on your own.

Surina, before you totter off to lodge a complain
about me to your Baby, I'll have you know that
I do not appreciate having her barge into the
toilet, yelling her face blue at me. & of course,
get her facts right first. She made a FOOL of
herself the last time. Tsk tsk.That poor Baby
of yours. I'd appreciate it if she could leave
the act of humiliating herself to me instead.

Hmmm..I hope I didn't sound too sarcastic
or abrasive? Pardon me if i did..but you can't
blame me for doing this. Afterall, she spoilt
MY afternoon. WHO likes being yelled at?
For NOTHING? There, we're quits.

-

Seriously, I ought to stop wasting my time.
In my desire to help, I'm inclined to become
involved in the lives & decisions of other people,
which more often than not, leaves me in a rather
unproptitious position.


In other words,
CARE LESS = HAPPINESS

I'm surrounded by ignorant people who
cant't give two hoots what you do for them
& what you have done for them. I believe ky
can relate to this topic, yes? (:

Faux Friendship was all that was genuine.
Once our purpose as stepping-stones are
fulfilled, they sashay off, leaving us dumped,
out in some wayside trashbag. That's just so
selfish. Things have gotten so bad, they can
literally run right into you without acknowledging
your presence.

I'm taking another sentence to remind everyone that
this is an observation, not a rant. It's just something
that dawned on me.

My selfish ways out number the good ways,
I'm not a Saint nor am I some anti-social who's
against having alot of friends. I just wish other
people (some of my friends in particular) weren't
so driven by the idea of having MORE friends
& all that junk that they totally disregard the
ones who stood by them when the world had
their backs turned. They seem totally consumed.
Does more friends really guarantee you popularity?
I don't think so. I'm contented with my few.

& I'm not talking about a national level.
This is on a personal level, what I see everyday.
I could care less about what the rest of the universe
is doing most of the time. Why can't we all just go about
our daily lives yet respect each other's presence at the
same time?

For those dissatisfied with the humdrum entries
I've been posting on a sporadic basis, I think this one
deserves credit.

...


That'd be another one for my ego.



I'm kidding.



Well, maybe not. (: